Sunday, October 19, 2008

"When she awakes..."

Mia continues to do well. For the most part, she has returned to her sweet, happy self. It's amazing what routine, structure, rythym, and love will do. However, ever since we've returned from the hospital she often wakes up sad - similar to when we first brought her home from China. This is different than just being cranky or "waking up on the wrong side of the bed." Her cries have been mournful and searching, sometimes angry.

It is striking how connected I am to her emotionally. When she's in a funk, I'm in a funk. When she's happy, I am happy. When she has a rough morning, I'm a bear. I can only imagine how I'll feel when she has her first break-up or gets her first B. (just kidding). Parenting doesn't get easier, does it?

So my prayer over her life is Psalm 139 and there's this particular line that means so much to me. It says simply "When I awake, I am with thee." That's been my prayer for our daughter lately. That, when she awakes, she will know that her God is with her, has always been with her, and forever still.

1 comment:

Danielle said...

Hi Dan. Every time I read one of your posts about Mia, I think of the book "You Are My I Love You" by Maryann Cusimano. In case you have never seen it, here are the words. Truly precious.

I am your parent;
you are my child.
I am your quiet place;
you are my wild.

I am your calm face;
you are my giggle.
I am your wait;
you are my wiggle.

I am your carriage ride;
you are my king.
I am your push;
you are my swing.

I am your audience;
you are my clown.
I am your London Bridge;
you are my falling down.

I am your carrot sticks;
you are my licorice.
I am your dandelion;
you are my first wish.

I am your water wings;
you are my deep.
I am your open arms;
you are my running leap.

I am your way home;
you are my new path.
I am your dry towel;
you are my wet bath.

I am your dinner;
you are my chocolate cake.
I am your bedtime;
you are my wide awake.

I am your finish line;
you are my race.
I am your praying hands;
you are my saying grace.

I am your favorite book;
you are my new lines.
I am your night-light;
you are my starshine.

I am your lullaby;
you are my peekaboo.
I am your goodnight kiss;
you are my I love you.